dear abang, this is for you

Dear big brother

I know I never say this to you

But I love you

I always do

Even when you called me ‘bodoh’

And offended me with your inconsiderate remarks

Even when you teased me

And called me names

‘Bepop’ and ‘Ikakumon’ and God knows what else

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I love you
I always do

Dear big brother

I know I am not the best sister in the world

And that we are not the bestest buddies

But I love you

I always do

Even when we didn’t agree on the same things

Even when we fought

And you despise my face and I despise yours

Even when you talked so much

And I get tired of listening

Even when you hijacked the TV while I’m watching

Even when you were mad at me

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I love you

I always do

I know you cannot stand me being fussy

I know you cannot stand me being bossy and noisy

I know you hate my guts for being loud and disturbed your sleep

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Thank you for bearing with me

Dear big brother

Now that you have found the love of your life

I just hope that you won’t forget me

I hope that you will save just a lil bit space in your love-filled heart

For your loud-fussy-noisy-annoying sister

Oh and I hope, with all my heart

That you will be happy

And that you will be blessed

And that you will be forever in love

Dear big brother

I know I never say this to you

--

But I love you

I always do.

and I'll go

chocolates and cigarettes- angus & julia stone

".. Still too young to fail, too scared to sail away
But one of these days I'll grow old
And I'll grow brave and I'll go
One of these days .."

jarak

a winter story - the one

Sekarang di depan engkau

Ada anak tangga putih

Yang jalannya tuju ke sana

Surga, langit ketujuh, kayangan

Apa apa aja yang kau mau gelarkan

Jadi bila tapak kaki kau sudah pijak disitu

Di tangga itu

Apa kau akan toleh lagi ke belakang mu?

Ke tanah merah yang cuma bikin kotor sepatu kilatmu?

--

Sebab aku tetap disini

Di tanah merah ini

Kau pergi

Tapi aku tetap tinggal disini

kau pandang muka aku dan cakap, "itu mustahil"

please don't leave me- pink

semoga di satu hari nanti
kau pandang langit cerah
dan kau cuma nampak nampak indah

dan semoga di satu hari nanti
kau bisa bebas
lalu terbang lepas
nun ke horizon yang luas

--

semoga nanti itu
kau cuma pergi dari aku
dan bukan melupakanku.

aku punya kuasa super; aku yang tidak kelihatan

be be your love- rachel yamagata

sini, tengok sini
aku yang separuh mati sayang kan engkau sepenuh hati
engkau tak nampak?

--

itulahh
kan sudah di-peringat
jangan kau sayang pada yang tak berminat

kan sudahnya hati engkau itu dicampak- campak
kan akhirnya hati engkau itu dibiar-tinggal
di lorong gelap, berderai dan tersadai

itulahh
kan sudah di-peringat

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hukhuk itu hati aku lah, gila!